Invoice or Love Letter

“Dear Heavenly Father, Your Word tells me that I am a letter being read by everyone. I pray that I won’t be junk mail today. I pray that I won’t be like a bill making people feel like they owe me. I pray that I will be a love letter, a thank you note, and an invitation to celebrate life.
In Jesus’ Name,
Amen.”  (www.girlfriendsingod.com)

Wow – After the day I had earlier this week, the prayer above really convicts me.  I could blame it on the Heatwave, excessive stress, change in routine, any number of things.  Honestly, though, it all boils down to me making the choice to let my emotions have the best of me.  I wasn’t only miserable myself, but I managed to spread my bad mood to those I love the most too.

I think God showed me that prayer on purpose today.  You see, I realized yesterday, even as I was saying the words in a not-so-nice tone, how I sounded and how unfair I was being.  So, last night, I first asked forgiveness from my Heavenly Father for being such a poor example to those He entrusted to me as well as those unfortunate souls who happened to cross my path.  Then I apologized to my kids themselves for being “the wicked witch of the mid-West.”

This morning, I was determined to have a different sort of day.  I asked questions instead of accused, found things to compliment my kids about instead of criticizing, and even though it’s my job to keep my children focused on “completing tasks to their best ability,” I chose the better way to go about that goal.

When I opened the cupboard to grab a container and everything fell out on top of me, my response was much different this morning than it would have been yesterday.  Did I let my kids off the hook for their laziness?  No, but I was very clear in my expectations, delivered with love this time.  Does that mean that they were thrilled to hear the message today because it was told in a different tone of voice?  No, but that isn’t the point.

I am realizing, and the prayer above just reemphasizes, that it is my responsibility to show this world an accurate example of Christ’s love.  I am God’s letter.  If I am going to proclaim that I am a Christ follower, then I need to show Christ in my life always, not just when my hair looks good, the scale shows numbers I like, and the temperature is in the low 80s with a breeze.  I will even take my convictions one step further.  I think it’s more important to show Christ when in the middle of a Heatwave, my stress level is through the roof, or Murphy’s Law has decided to set up camp in my front yard.  People who are looking to see if Christ is the answer to their life are going to look, probably doubly hard, at how a Christ follower handles life on a day-by-day basis, during good and bad days.  And, even though I won’t get it right all the time, I pray that I’m learning from my mistakes (like yesterday) and will do better the next time.  After all, I don’t want to be accused of false advertising.